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[20 Jan 2005|04:51pm] |
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oh snap... im actually typing something here.. well the past couple of weeks has been full of drama.. dam.. well its all up on my xanga site.. well not really.. i deleted alot of things to get my mind off it.. hehe so yea.. il probably update this from time to time.. so keep watch..
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[01 Jul 2004|03:46pm] |
man has it been a while.. well if ur not checking out my xanga site.. to break everything down.. everything is going good.. no problems so far.. but to kno more.. jus visit my xanga site..
http://www.xanga.com/baby_shark06
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[17 Jun 2004|11:47am] |
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well i havent updated dated for a few days.. uhh i've been trying to use my xanga site so yea.. if i dont update here.. check that..
http://www.xanga.com/baby_shark06
so yea.. bye
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[14 Jun 2004|02:18pm] |
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well rite now im super bored.. this whole day the only person that i talked to on the phone was jaymee.. and i jus chatted with a couple of people online.. well nuthing interesting to talk bout.. i went to sleep around 12 sumthing last nite cuz i couldnt sleep.. i was jus laying down on my bed staring at the ceiling.. then.. jaymee called.. i jus talked to her.. cuz i really needed someone to talk to.. and idk.. she couldnt really say nething.. but im glad that i talked to her.. cuz idk wat i would've done if i jus kept everything in.. well.. i woke up like super early today cuz i heard my mom and dad inside my room.. and i couldnt go back to sleep.. *sigh* wat to do.. i think im going to perez acres tonite for our family thing.. i think were gonna go nite swimming.. idk if i feel like going tho.. but then agen i have to.. rite now.. all i can hear is my music and all these kids yelling and screaming.. dam i think im gonna go deaf soon in this house cuz of these kids..
"I wonder if he ever thinks of me,
So I even matter to him at all,
Without him I wonder what I would be,
My life and my world would be very small,
Does he love me with all his heart and soul,
Does he care for me even a little,
If not my heart would be left with a hole,
This feeling I have is like a riddle,
I wonder what is he doing rite now,
Is he listening to our special song,
The one that was played when he made his vow,
When I knew he was the one all along,
To my love I dedicate this one line,
I will love you because you are mine."
"I have always lovedthis one guy dearly,
He came back to my life 3 years ago,
He means so much and I want him neat me,
But where is he right now, 'Where did you go?'
I have thought about the guy of my dreams,
I wondered about the day we would meet,
When I met him that day I know it seems,
Impossible but I felt my heart beat,
My heart beats so fast, my feelings for him,
Are growing stronger and deeper each day,
I'm telling you now I really miss him,
So much that I can't speak the words to say,
The gift that was sent to me from heaven,
Was a great and loving guy name ******************."
9:42 p.m.
well i jus got home from perez acres a few minutes ago.. man im hot.. imma take a cold shower later.. well i saw my fren clariza.. i havent seen her in a while.. and yea i went swimming a little.. but most of the time i was staring at my cellphone.. pretty stoopid huh.. im at a pool but i waste my time looking at my cell.. *sigh* oh well.. the dam reception was bad so i gave up.. and yea.. i had fun.. it was good to get my mind off some things.. i also talked to grace today.. haha cuz i called her a couple of days ago and she knew something was wrong and she only called today.. haha i was asking her how come she didnt jus go to my house and she sed cuz she was lazy.. haha well thats grace.. haha she was like "did u bake cookies? how bout brownies? did u bake nething?" haha she likes it wen i bake cuz it gives her some junk food to eat.. and she was like "you kno wen ur sad ur suppose to bake" haha oh well.. sorry grace i didnt bake.. dont have all the ingredients that i need..
newaise.. im kinda bored rite now.. agen.. i tried calling my fren jaymee but she isnt home yet.. mayb i'l try calling her later.. man oh man.. wat is there to do?? i kno.. nuthing.. i wonder if were still having that clinic.. i wanna get out of this house.. oh crap i was suppose to go with grace to her orientation tomorrow.. hmm oh well.. i dont think imma go nemore.. well i think this is it for now.. imma go finish my brownie.. ooo sweets, chocolate :P yummy...
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| One last chance.. |
[13 Jun 2004|06:56pm] |
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well.. last nite.. i was crying agen.. i was thinking bout all this stuff.. i played this song that made start to think.. and then i pulled out some stuff and i was jus looking at it.. and i started crying.. idk i gess i was jus thinking bout some memories..
i texted kevin last nite (even tho i wasnt suppose to) but i sed sory.. and yea i got to talk to him on the phone.. well i didnt really talk he was talking most of the time.. i jus stayed quiet.. but then i did talk a couple of times.. and i gess i told him y i was doing wat i was.. cuz well he didnt kno y i was doing that and i gess i jus sed everything.. well idk if it was everything he wanted to kno tho.. and i didnt wanna say nething cuz it would've jus back fired at me.. i mean i would try to explain but he would have sumthing to say bout it.. so yea.. well he sed i have one more chance.. if i screw up then thats it.. i lose him for good..and i really dont wanna lose him.. so im gonna do everything i can jus to keep him.. *sigh* gotta be careful now..
well today.. i jus went to church around 12:30.. then i went home around 4:30.. and i jus watched moulin rouge agen.. haha i think ima be obsessed with that movie or sumthing.. and well rite now im jus chatting.. and listening to music.. ill update later cuz my im babysiting agen..
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[12 Jun 2004|06:16pm] |
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hmm.. didn't think it would happen but it did.. its all over.. everything.. done.. finished.. if your confused then jus ask me wat im talking bout and mayb ill tell u..
everything is my fault.. it always is.. and i gess i pushed it to the limit where he couldn't take it nemore.. well.. expect the unexpected.. and that was really unexpected..
the arguments can go on forever is your dreams.. but in reality is always has to come to an end.. and for me.. this is the end.. for one lucky person that is.. i say lucky cuz they dont have to deal with my shet nemore.. as sad as i am.. i cant do nething.. it all happend so fast and it started with something so little.. and it was started by me.. i started everthing.. he jus ended it.. well now he can move on without having to deal with me.. he doesnt have to listen to my bickering and my nagging and my bitching.. he can finally be happy.. so bad things can end with something good for one person and bad for another.. i gess i ended with the bad.. he always thinks that after an argument im gonna talk smack bout him in my livejournal.. and well its cuz i usually do.. but now.. theres nothing to say.. i deserved everything he did to me today.. and he didnt deserve what i did to him.. i gess i jus wasnt thinking before i sed nething.. and well if u kno me.. im pretty good at that.. i assume things, i dont think before i say nething, and i think bout myself more than i do bout others.. thats wat i get alot from other people.. and its pretty sad.. those were some things that i needed to take out of my system.. and i gess i never did.. i knew it would come with a consiquence.. and it jus hit me now.. it was the one thing i never wanted to happen.. but since i never listened.. i got wat i deserve.. nothing..
*sigh* well i have a headache rite now.. and its killing me.. i locked myself in my room for a few minutes and i cried.. but hey its my fault.. and i check my cellphone cuz i missed a call and it came from kevin's other house.. the thing was i was talking to him on the phone wen i missed that call.. i think his mom called me.. cuz other than kevin she's the only person in his house that knows my cell #.. i wonder wat she wanted.. oh well.. i gess i wont find out unless she calls me agen.. *sigh* i needa talk to my bestfren.. bye..
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[11 Jun 2004|07:42pm] |
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well i havent updated in a while cuz uhh me and my dad kinda broke the computer.. haha we were cleaning it.. haha with a vacuum.. pretty stoopid huh.. and umm sumthing got unattached.. so yea.. but now its fixed.. haha yay!!
well neways lets see wat has happend..
umm the 9th.. well nuthing happend that day.. i jus babysitted.. then i went to church that nite.. thats basically it i gess..
yesterday.. hmm i jus stayed home.. used the phone a little bit.. and jus watched tv.. haha i stayed up until like 3 in the morning watching moulin rouge.. haha is that how u spell it?? not too sure.. but haha thats a sad movie.. i even cried.. haha
and today i jus babysitted..and i was suppose to watch garfield with my cuzins but my mom sed next time.. so yea.. and now im here.. chatting.. hehe ok bye..
9:16 p.m.
well i jus hung up on kevin.. he sed he didnt feel like talking to neone tonite.. which is kinda weird cuz he was chatting with idk who online.. and he wasnt even talking to me on the phone.. pretty dumb huh.. oh well.. thats him not me..
neways.. im jus bored rite now.. as u can tell cuz i only come back here wen im bored or wen sumthing happend.. well im jus listening to music rite now.. and well yea.. thats basically all im doing..
hmm i wonder wat im doing tomorrow.. my sister has a modelling class tomorrow at 1.. hmm haha she must be having fun.. i wanted to be enrolled to that too but my auntie sed that i was alredy exposed so she jus enrolled my sister and my cuzin.. oh well hehe at least i can go out.. but then agen i only do wen i plan ahed.. and well i didnt plan nething for this weekend.. that sucks.. hmm.. i wanna get my permit alredy.. i wonder wen my mom is gonna enroll me.. it better be soon.. hehe.. and wen are we going to have that clinic for cheerleading.. man i wanna go alredy.. haha i needa work out.. i mean i can at home but then i dont have to so i get lazy and i dont.. but then if we have a clinic we have to so yea.. uhh.. wat else.. were gonna have camp on the 21st to the 25th.. haha thats gonna be fun.. i havent been to camp in two years.. haha i found out that were gonna be sleeping in the woods.. man thats gonna be freaky.. i think the camp is at tarague beach in the base.. haha man im gonna have a lot of fun.. haha i think thats the only fun thing im gonna be doing this summer.. theres nothing else thats gonna happen after that.. uhh a couple of birthday's are happening this summer.. my brother's birthday is coming up on the 16th of june.. then i think thats all for june.. and then july 5th is jaymee's birthday, 12th is sam and ryan's birthday, 24th is russell's birhtday, 27th is cj's birthday.. and i think thats it for july.. well thats all i can remember.. well i gess this is it for now..
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[08 Jun 2004|01:27pm] |
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well nuthing much has been happening..
yesterday.. i jus stayed home. nuthing much for me to do but be bored.. i jus talked on the phone a little.. go online for a bit.. and thats pretty much it.. then at 6 i went to the mall with my family.. we watched harry potter with my cuzins and my auntie and uncle.. then i went home around 9.. then i talked to kevin for a while.. then i went online.. then i talked to kevin agen from like 11 to almost 12.. haha he was falling asleep agen.. thats how boring i am.. he tends to fall asleep everytime we talk at nite.. hehe but its ok.. i understand hes tired and im boring.. haha bad combination if u wanna talk to someone on the phone late at nite.. well thats pretty much wat happend yesterday.. oh yea and my cuzin/fren left to p.i.. imma miss u maynard!! have a safe trip..
wel today.. im jus baby sitting agen.. and my grandma aint staying here nemore so i gotta watch them by myself.. haha i better get paid for this.. haha hey i need money.. im poor rite now.. well il update later..
oh yea.. quote of uhh yesterday hehe..
"Dreams do come true.. good or bad.. it doesn't matter."
i should kno.. it happend to me 2 days ago.. if u read my last entry you'll kno wat dream im talking bout.. but then there are some things that didnt happen..
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[06 Jun 2004|08:45am] |
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last nite i had a dream.. that u came up with every reason to end wat we have jus because u wanted to go out with sumone else.. then wen i woke up i started to cry.. cuz i was thinking of y u would do that.. i was thinking that it mite happen.. and it jus made me cry even more.. theres a possibility that it mite happen.. especially because of how things are going rite now.. and i kno that theres someone that wants to be with u and i kno that u have some feelings for her too.. cuz u had a chance to be with her.. u jus didnt take it cuz of ur frens.. but now that she doesnt care bout wat they say.. u have another chance.. its ur choice whether u wanna take it.. so heres the thing.. if u get another girlfren.. then were done.. cuz i dont wanna wait here then look stoopid if u get another girlfren.. i feel like im sumthing u can jus run to wen u want sumthing.. and it seems like u always find sumthing to get mad about jus so that u can go talk to some girl.. and if thats not the case u go talk to some girl neway.. and i dont understand how u could be so lovey dovey with me for a minute and then ur flirting with sum other girl the next minute.. dont u think thats messed up.. i mean i dont even do that.. so if ur jus gonna use me please stop.. and if ur jus gonna keep going off to other girls wen u find the chance to.. then dont come back to me.. cuz i hate feeling like im being used.. cuz it feels like crap.. i understand that u get mad.. but getting mad then flirting with sum girl after that?? it seems like u jus got mad so u can do that.. i really dont kno wat to think rite now.. so if u dont mind.. u wanna try explaining everything to me.. hope u had fun talking to whoever that was last nite.. dammit.. im gona go..
10:23.. well today is the parade.. im going to skinner's plaza at around 11 for lunch then im gonna go to church at 1:30.. then im gonna get ready at 3:30.. then were gonna head back to skinner's plaza for the parade.. man.. i needa talk to u (you kno who u are)
8:57 pm
well i went to skinner's plaza around 12 or sumthing like that and i ended up staying the whole time.. i watched my frens from skip, stargazers, and dancejazz perform.. and there were some people who sang.. man these filipinos now-a-days like over exagerate wen they sing.. hehe but its ok.. man it was so hot there.. then around 3:30 i got ready.. then my escort came at around 4.. then the parade started at 5.. man that walk was kinda long.. and my feet was hurting man.. we had to walk to the dam road.. oh yea i saw my fren brian but idk if he saw me.. and i saw a couple of other people.. then yea after we walked the parade started at skinners plaza and ended at skinner's plaza.. then we took a couple of pictures with the star guest.. they're filipino actresses.. i forgot there name tho.. then yea.. we left around 6 sumthing..
well wen i got home i changed.. then i went online.. and yea.. then kevin called.. and uhh we talked.. and umm.. i gess we had to take care of sum things.. and yea i gess its been taken care of.. but i really dont wanna talk bout it.. well i gess this is it for now..
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damm i had like this super long entry but it got deleted so i have to retype it..
well i was online at like 1:30 then i called kevin at around 2.. and we hung up at around 3 cuz he was getting sleepy..
ok so i woke up around 9 or 9:30.. then i calld christina to say happy birthday.. then i watched tv alittle.. then around 11 i got ready to go to the mall.. then i talked to kevin at around 12:30.. then i left around 1.. wen i got to the mall i walked around a little.. then i stayed at the railing to wait for kevin.. and i got tired of waiting there so we went to the center court to see what was happening.. then we went back to the railing and i saw kevin.. then i had to go to my auntie and kevin ditched me cuz he sed it seemed like i didnt want him there.. then i saw him agen and we kinda talked.. i was kinda mad cuz he came late and i wanted to watch a movie with him but i had to watch harry potter.. then wen me and my cuzin went in line i was kinda tearing and my cuzin looked mad.. so my auntie gave us our ticket and told us to come back by 5:30.. then i went to payless to find kevin.. then we walked around a little.. then around 4 he bought a ticket to watch troy.. and i sneaked in with him.. hehe.. and i aint gonna say wat happend in there but yea.. then around 5 he had to leave so we ditched the movie and i went into the harry potter theater.. and it ended at like 5:45.. then i went to buy a drink and i saw kevin.. so i stayed with him while my cuzin was buying food... then kevin told me he saw vina.. then i went to talk to my cuzin and wen i turned around i saw vina.. i think she gave me a bad look.. not too sure.. and i think she saw me with kevin.. and she looked sad or mad everytime i saw her after that.. then i gave kevin a kiss and i had to go.. i wanted him to walk me to the door but wen i went back his fren told me he left alredy.. and yea.. now im home.. hehe.. ok i think imma call kev now.. bye..
11:23 p.m.
well im bored.. and im listening to music.. as usual.. man this summer sucks.. well i jus hung up on kev like 20 minutes ago and we got into another argument.. cuz i was talking smack bout his so called best fren.. well idk yea its talking smack but its the truth.. i mean foreal.. who in their rite mind would flirt with their cuzins boifren behind their back.. thats pretty messed up dont u think.. heck i'd be super pissed if that was me.. but my cuzins arent the messed up.. kevin's probably getting mad even more jus reading this thing.. but oh well.. its not my problem.. and hes getting mad cuz he doesnt want people to kno that we still talk to/see each other.. i dont get it tho.. cuz hello people can see us at the mall.. so wat difference does it make here.. *sigh* idk..
newaise.. tomorrow is the parade.. hmm i hope my escort comes on time.. its at 5:00 at skinner's plaza.. hmm.. hope it doesnt rain.. oh yea haha i found out that chavez is holding the arch for his auntie.. haha wat a coincidence.. he jus saw my scn and he told me.. so im probably gonna see him tomorrow.. well this is it i ges..
11:54
shet its only been wat?? 50 minutes.. and alredy we got into another argument.. pretty fast huh.. well i gess thats the big "WOW" in our relationship.. he says all i ever do is get mad.. well then y the heck do u still talk to me?? if u dont wanna deal with it.. then y do u even call?? oh shet.. i forgot im the one who calls not u.. ok im sory.. since u dont wanna deal with my bull then i'l stop calling u.. is that ok with u?? of course.. thats probably wat u wnt.. ok then.. il stop.. jus to put u out of ur misery.. u happy now??
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[04 Jun 2004|01:16pm] |
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well im here.. at home.. babysitting.. how fun.. its the beginning of a super boring summer.. i jus hope that there are things to fill up my spacious time.. even if it is jus once a week..
hmm tomorrow is christina's birthday.. haha she's turning 14.. whoo she growing up so fast.. haha.. well i wonder wat she's gonna do for her birthday.. i heard that her frens are planning a sleep over for her but i dont think she should be there alone with her frens.. haha i told her brother to watch her.. but he was like "what the hell am i gonna do there with a bunch of girls?" but hey this is my cuzin were talking bout.. and knowing her and her frens.. there are probably gonna be guys there and all this bad shet that mite happen.. my cuzin changed so much.. and i really dont want her to turn out bad.. dont want ne1 in my family having the reputation of a slut.. so yea.. christina you better be good.. or i'l kick ur ass.. :P yea rite she'd probably hurt me first..
well i wanna go to the mall tomorrow cuz yea i wanna see sumone.. but then theres this parade on sunday and i need finish making this stoopid arch.. if i wanna go tomorrow i better finish this so that we don't hafta worry bout it.. dam we should of started on it like a long time ago.. but we didnt even get the dam materials yet.. crap..
*sigh* rite now its 1:23 p.m. and im waiting for sum1 to go online or call me.. i wonder where he is.. he was with his grandma at the bank like how many hours ago.. it doesnt take that long.. unless they went somewhere.. oh well il jus wait or ill jus call his cell later..
dont u think its sad when u like someone and that person likes u too for like a second than likes sumone else?? i mean come on.. u kno that this person likes u and yet u still tell that person to their face that u like sumone else.. thats pretty sad.. especially for the person that likes u.. another situation is wen u really love someone.. and ur waiting for sumthing to happen.. but sumthing tends to get in the way everytime theres a chance.. the time u think that sumthing is finally gonna happen, something else comes into the picture and so now ur thinking "man i'm screwed".. thats one of the saddest things that can happen.. also knowing that u had to get rid of sumthing else before that.. so its like things come one after another.. and u hate it so much but if u really love that person ur willing to deal with it.. ur willing to try to fix everything all over agen.. for the people reading this.. these are true situations.. i kno some people who are going through it.. and i jus wanna say that for neone who is.. i think that you can really get through it.. if u love the person so much don't give up.. if u can't take the pain jus move on.. if u cant.. and ur willing to take the pain.. then good luck and you should always trust your heart and not ur head.. no matter wat..
3:12 p.m.
well jus wen u think things are going smoothly.. something explodes rite in front of ur face to ruin things.. dammit.. life sucks doesn't it.. oh well gess im jus gonna have to deal with it.. shet.. mayb i should forget bout everything.. its freaking stoopid..
5:42 p.m.
cant u tell im like super bored.. hmm i wonder how many times i went online today.. well i talked to kevin earlier for like 5 minutes cuz we got into another "thing".. *sigh* and it was bout girls agen.. hes going to a hotel party tonite and yea.. so we got into a dispute bout that.. i sed that he mite meet another girl there.. cuz he went to his fren's birthday party.. and he met vina.. then he went to another fren's birthday part.. and he met joanna.. and tonite hes going to another fren's birthday party.. so i wonder who he's gonna meet tonite.. and all of his fren's are girls.. so of course they would introduce him, being a guy and all, to some of their frens.. and what do u kno.. sumthing happens.. u never thot that would happen rite.. but hey he's single.. hes living his life to the fullest.. hes having fun going out.. hes experiencing new things.. while im here.. sitting next to the phone.. wondering if hes gonna call.. or waiting online.. to see if he would come on.. but hey its ok rite.. i mean were not together after all.. im jus waiting for someone.. but i'l let them go out and have fun before the wait can end.. yea i'l talk to him like he's my boifren.. and yea i kno hes talking to some other girls like nuthing is happening between us.. but hey thats life wen ur single rite.. watever.. life's a bitch.. and you can't get everything you want.. u jus gotta wait.. wait to see if u stand a chance.. but sumtimes when u think u do.. gess wat.. u dont.. it may seem like it for a while.. but hey it was fun while it lasted rite.. u jus have to deal with all the bad stuff.. even if u dont like it..
hmm i was talking to my auntie earlier.. and she sed that she read my journal.. haha she sed it was really bad.. cuz of some of the stuff that she was reading.. and she asked if sumthing was going on between me and kevin.. i sed no and she thot i was in denial.. i mean of course i still have feelings for him.. but rite now he wants to have fun.. and i have to deal with it.. i mean were both single.. and sure u think i should be having fun too rite.. i mean yea i do have fun.. but i do set my limits.. i dont drink and smoke.. heck i only tried drinking twice.. and i didnt like it.. i didnt even drink alot.. heck it was jus like a shot.. and i dont go out flirting with guys.. making them think that im into them.. heck im into someone else.. y the heck would i make them think that.. and wen i do go out.. its with girls.. if there are guys.. their my frens boifrens.. or their one of my really close frens.. other than that.. i never go past my limit.. thats my life of being single.. who else has that life?? no one rite?? cuz of course if ur single u'd would be having the time of ur life with other people.. well sorry but im waiting for sumone.. i jus have to let that person enjoy everything that a person should enjoy when they are single.. even if it deals with how many other girls.. *sigh* well.. i gess that's life..
"It's funny how you could be intimate with someone one night, then flirt with someone else the next night.. pretty messed up huh.."
1:54 a.m.
hmm i jus woke up like almost 30 minutes ago.. hmm well tonite we were working on my arch so that we didnt have to worry bout it tomorrow.. and yea its finished.. then i went to sleep around 11 or sumthing like that.. well earlier i got like an unexpected call from an old fren of mine.. her name is teruko ichihara..haha man i haven't heard or seen her in a long time.. and i was freaking out wen she called.. but hey we caught up on sum stuff.. haha yea.. thats basically it.. im kinda bored rite now.. idk if kev is home yet.. he never called me back.. and he sed his curfew was 2 so idk.. mayb il call his cell later.. if he doesnt come on..*yawn*
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[03 Jun 2004|02:27pm] |
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well today was the last day of school and i miss my frens alredy.. but hey imma see most of them next year..
for the people who arent coming back to sanchez.. imma miss u.. and have fun where ever u are going..
for those who are leaving off island.. have a safe trip and come back to visit..
for everyone else.. have fun this summer.. enjoy it while u still can..
well today was ok.. it was kinda boring cuz there werent that many people at skool..
in first period we cleaned the room and then we were watching texas chainsaw masacre.. oh yea haha simon was so sweet.. he gave me, florida, krizia, and jackie a rose.. but jackie wasnt there so he gave the other one to me.. and he gave a card too.. haha it was so sweet.. yea i gave him a hug for that.. haha..
in second period we didnt do nething either.. we were taking pictures then we had to tell our teacher the good and bad things that he did this year..
in 3rd period we were playing hangman on the board haha that was fun..
at lunch we were hanging out in the hallway with some of my frens..
in 4th period we finished gothika.. dammit my classmates are so messed up i swear.. they kept scaring me.. and like me and some other people in class freaking screamed like how many times.. dam that movie if scary..
in 5th period haha there werent that many of us.. we wre jus talking and taking pictures.. dammit i got a 66 for that class cuz my dam classmate lost my final exam.. argh,..
in 6th period we didnt really do nething.. we were kinda walking around the main building.. then the bell rang.. and we were out of skool..
and now im here.. updating this thing and chatting.. how fun.. hehe.. well here i go.. into the midst of summer.. crap..
10:43 p.m.
ok its nite time rite now.. and im jus listening to music and chatting.. nuthing much to do.. summer has started and it alredy seems boring.. i think the only good part is that i dont have to wake up early nemore and i can sleep wenever i want.. but other than that theres nuthing much to enjoy.. man im gonna be so bored in this house.. tomorrow i was suppose to go to skool to turn in my exam so i can pick up my english grade but idk how im gonna do that.. oh well.. i gess we'l just have to see..
i hope i can go mall on saturday.. its also christina's birthday that day.. and its the senior graduation.. man i wanted to go to the grad but then i wanna go to the mall more.. but we'll see..
on sunday i have to go to a parade at skinner's plaza.. dammit.. i have to be there by 4.. hmm.. its gonna suck cuz its all the way at agana.. and it mite be hot.. idk.. dranel (my god brother) is gonna be my escort cuz the person that i want turned me down.. hmm pretty sad huh.. yea.. well its ok.. its only one day.. then for the rest of the summer i gess il jus go by "watever happens, happens" cuz i honestly dont kno wat is gonna happen..
*sigh* i am like super bored rite now.. theres like alot of people online and i aint chatting with ne of them.. well i was but that person aint talking nemroe.. blah blah blah blah..
man im super lost in this friggin world.. foreal.. i have no idea whatsoever bout whats going on between everyone.. heck i jus found out who my fren was going out with today.. and they've been together.. dam am i blind.. and im lost bout sum other stuff.. but idk.. i really dont kno wat im suppose to think.. is that normal?? sorry if watever im saying doesnt make sense.. im jus basically saying nething that pops out of my head.. i wonder y she thot he was so hurt.. i dont get it.. i mean after all nuthing happend.. and she talked bout ending sumthing.. what was that?? man that letter was super confusing.. according to whatever he told me.. some stuff in that letter didnt make sense.. i wonder y she was thinking that.. hmm?? idk.. watever.. if sumthing happend then it happend.. i wouldn't kno..
well i think this is it for now.. its almost 11 and im still bored..
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well.. im not really happy rite now..
uhh sumone left a comment on one of my entries.. to answer ur question.. no nuthing is happening between us and they aren't together nemore..
oh yea and the other comment.. i kno who u are.. but dont gimme ur bs rite now.. i never even sed u were "gonna cry over me" read the fine print it doesnt say "over me".. ur jus mad cuz i got rid of ur ass.. and get over it.. if ur not mad.. then thats kinda messed up cuz it goes to show how much u cared bout ur ex.. oh wait i forgot.. werent u messing around behind his back?? well wen u answer that question i got a little surprise for u..
honestly.. i really dnt kno nemore.. i wonder how many times i sed this in my journal.. but i think im gonna start thinking of moving on.. the person that i love hates everything thats happening.. he cant accept what happend.. hmm and he told me to find someone who can.. so mayb i should.. u'd think that if someone told u they loved u they would be willing to accept what happend.. but gess wat.. its a lie.. unless their lying bout their feelings.. *sigh* idk.. im gonna see how things go.. rite now things are getting really bad and idk how much more im willing to take.. i love that person but if he cant accept things.. and if he wants me to change sumthing that i've been trying to change but hasnt worked.. then i gess i should jus find someone who can.. i kno i may have the worse attitude.. and trust me i have been trying to fix that.. but no matter how hard i try.. i jus snap.. theres always sumthing that would trigger it.. i mean i try so hard to stay calm but then things start to get out of hand and there are things that i cant stay calm about.. if you dont like it then y should i bother.. if u want me to find someone else.. then mayb i should.. cuz i really dont want u to stay with something that you dont even like.. and if u say that u dont wanna walk away for whatever reason then mayb i should.. i kno u hate everything.. and u should kno by now that i cant really change no matter how hard i try.. u jus cant accept it.. so then im gone.. out of ur life.. u can go find someone whos willing to do whatever you tell them to do without giving you any trouble bout it.. cuz u tell me to do sumthing thats so hard for me to do.. yea i try but it wont last.. *sigh* no nvm.. forget it.. stop trying.. im giving up on everything.. im gonna try my best to stay away from you so you dont have to deal with all this misery... bye..
well well well.. looks like a little birdie popped out of the sky agen.. and this time it'll finally gimme me a break from nagging my frens all the time.. alvin u probably kno wat im talking bout cuz i nag on u the most.. hehe.. well i dont have to nemore.. u probably kno y.. yup.. i finally kno.. my answer that i keep asking u has finally been answered.. see i told u i was gonna find out.. and i told u how.. haha gess wat.. it worked agen.. hehe.. finally.. ok thats one question to get rid of.. now i have another one.. wat the heck was going on?? cuz im really confused.. cuz wen i found my answer it came along with some questions.. as always.. theres always a catch to find out an answer.. dammit.. now i needa kno the answer for this one.. most of u people are probably lost but ill tell u, if i feel like it.. and if u ask..
8:50 p.m.
well i jus got home from church a couple of minutes ago.. *sigh* man tomorrow is the last day of skool.. imma miss my frens.. its gona be a long vacation.. and a boring one too.. oh well.. i gess im jus gonna have to make the best of it.. oh yea i forgot.. earlier vina talked to me.. and she asked if sumthing was going on between me and kev.. and i told her that there was suppose to but things were getting messed up.. i think she was kinda mad cuz she didnt kno that.. but she doesnt kno nething.. im thinking bout whether or not i should tell her the truth.. oh well.. we'll jus have to see...
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[01 Jun 2004|07:23pm] |
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okay for my last entry thats what happend on the 28th and the 29th..
on the 30th i jus went to church and then came home.. this weekend was kinda hectic.. cuz of some stuff that has been happening but i think its getting better.. and i hope it doesnt get worse..
yesterday.. we didnt have skool so i stayed home.. i babysat my cuzins and around 4:30 or 5 me and my sister went to the beach for a bbq for cheerleading.. haha wen i got there only clair and eva were there.. then around 5:30 everyone else started coming.. i had fun.. haha mike made it lively.. then after we ate some of us were making sandcastles and some of them were swimming.. then the guys started throwing seaweed at people.. haha char was so funny.. she kept throwing it but she kept missing.. and then my dad came so i stayed for a few more minutes to take pictures.. and eva gave me the thing that she was working on the whole year.. it was so nice.. no we kno y she took so many pictures.. haha.. then wen i got home the rodger's family were at my house.. yea and we had our family thing.. and thats it..
today the beginning of my day was pretty ok.. then it started geting bad in 3rd period cuz i had a quiz that i think i failed.. then in 5th period my classmate was pissing me off.. then yea i cried in that class cuz of sumthing else.. then in 6th period wen i was talking to grace i started crying agen.. and yea.. then i had like a two-minute confrontation with my classmate cuz she was pissing me off.. and yea.. i went home.. i ordered come buffalo wings with grace.. haha i was craving.. and yea i watched jurassic park 3 and shrek.. then i talked to kevin for a while.. then we ordered pizza.. and i hate some.. and now im chatting and typing this.. hehe.. and i think the parentals are gonna watch a movie later.. hehe.. well i think this is it for now.. buh bye!!
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[30 May 2004|11:32pm] |
well wat happend today and yesterday??
yesterday was my sister's promotion.. i went to skool but i left during second period cuz i needed to get my test.. then i went to expo hall around 9 and yea.. man talk about an unorganized graduation.. foreal.. well wat can usay its bms.. and the teachers watever they were are mean.. honestly.. me and grace were jus standing there and sum lady starts getting mad at us.. sheesh.. oh yea.. i saw kevin's mom and his sister.. grace sed that his mom was looking at us.. well thats wat shes good at.. "looking".. and yea.. dude there were so many of them.. freal i think there was 500 or mayb a little less or a little more.. then we jus ate at the mall.. and i bought my hat and my shoes for my performance.. and some other stuff happend but im too pissd bout some of it to even talk bout it..
well today.. i went to my brother's carnival at his skool.. then around 12:30 i went to the mall with my cuzins.. we stayed at macy's for like the longest time trying to look for christina's graduation clothes.. then i bought a skirt and another hat.. can u believe that.. i wasted like how much money on the same thing.. then.. we jus walked around the mall a little bit.. oh yea i saw vina and her frens.. and uhh sum other people.. then i went home at 3 sumthing and i jus got ready for my the sport's banquet.. and yea i went to top o' the mar at around 4 sumthing.. and yea it was pretty fun there.. it wasnt boring but it wasnt that great.. i kinda got sleepy during the award ceremony.. and yea our performance was nice.. but i kinda missed like one step.. and yea.. haha i got a trophy and a medal.. i got "most improved cheerleader" haha thats true.. i did improve like alot.. and yea.. our games were pretty fun.. haha.. and now im getting in trouble.. argh.. i gtg
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[27 May 2004|07:27pm] |
haha well today is my bestfren grace's birthday.. haha she's 16!! so where's the license grace?? haha.. its also manny's birthday.. Happy Birthday to you Manny!!
well today.. it was the last day for the seniors..
1st period we watched the video that my teacher made for the whole school year.. the one with the pictures of the students in school.. man i almost cried cuz of the music and memories.. *sniff*
2nd period we didnt really do nething.. i went to my counselor to change my schedule and my path.. then we went back to class and we didnt really do nething..
3rd period we did work.. can u believe that.. skool's almost over and were still doing work..
at lunch i went to aguilar's class to type our solicitation letter.. then i tried faxing it..
in 4th period me and kat went to aguilar's class and we jus stayed there..
in 5th period.. we were eating chicken and listening to some presentations..
6th period.. we had our final exam..
then there was senior countdown..
and now im at home.. haha pretty boring huh..
well sport's banquet is coming up.. hmm i think il go mall saturday.. ok well i kinda need to so i can get some stuff for our performance.. and i gess this is it.. bye
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[25 May 2004|06:19pm] |
ok well lets see..
on sunday i jus went to church.. we had to sing.. haha we were so low but they sed it was nice.. and yea i jus went home after church..
on monday.. it was cathy's birthday but i didnt get to talk to her.. uhh wat else?? my teacher came back from this trip and he talked to me.. he sed the sub told him that i was giving her attitude bout our assignment.. pssh watever.. i was not giving her attitude.. ok not really.. i jus sed i didnt wanna do it.. then at practice we had the meeting.. haha not alot of people came cuz they were busy.. then we had to practice our dance.. haha its nice.. and i found out kevin pierced his tongue.. :P haha and it says "pimp" on the stud.. haha..
well today.. nuthing really happend at skool.. we had practice agen.. haha we werent really doing nething cuz we finished it alredy.. haha we were talking bout ghost stories.. and we were inside a room too.. haha.. we were scaring each other.. and yea thats bout it..
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well this passed week hasnt been that busy for me but some stuff has happend..
wednesday.. it was the day of championship.. we all went to krizia's house to fix our hair and stuff.. then we left at 4:30 to go to to uog.. we jus watched the other game for a while then eva came.. so we practiced half time.. then the game started at 7.. man we were ahed at the beginning then jfk started to catch up.. man we were so ready to perform for half time.. our performance was so good.. our first dance.. our music got cut off but we jus finished dancing cuz it was almost over newy.. then yea everyone liked our performance.. man i was so happy we didnt mess up.. then jfk performed.. hehe sorry but they kinda messed up.. but it was pretty good.. then sex bomb performed.. dude i feel so sorry for them cuz they got suspended.. but their performance was pretty good.. and we got 2nd place.. but its ok.. i saw kev's sister there.. i also saw cushla, rich palarca (sorry if i spelled ur last name wrong), also jamerico, and alot of other people.. then we ate at king's i got home around 11..
thursday.. nothing really happend.. i didnt go practice cuz i got in troble.. then i went to church that nite..
friday.. i went to practice.. haha our dance is nice.. were dancing to "yeah" by usher.. then i left to go to guam high's graduation.. d'anna went with us.. then we went to this restaurant to eat.. then we went to zard's party.. haha that was fun.. im so bad.. shh dont tell.. i was kinda drinking a little.. not that many people were there but i new most of them.. i also saw kevin there.. haha we were matching.. and yea we were jus hanging out.. dee felt like a third string but we told rich to hang out with us.. then those guys were playing basketball haha and we were walking around zard's house.. man that place has a lot of different rooms.. but its kool.. i left around 10 cuz i got in troble..
and yea ill update later imma eat my pizza..
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[18 May 2004|05:48pm] |
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ok well nuthing much happend today..
1st period: jus worked on our group project.. dammit were not even finished.. we have until next week tuesday.. hope we finish on time..
2nd period: we had the interviews.. but i didnt get interviewed.. so most of the time i was jus talking in class with my classmates..
3rd: we jus did work.. agen..
4th: didnt do nething.. jason was acting all emo agen.. freaking guy whos freakin L.O.A. i swear.. its so iritating..
5th: jus worked on project.. and i was talking to alvin bout sum stuff.. and i askd phil bout joel.. so yea..
6th: jus did work...
well our practice was at 3:30 today.. while we were waiting.. me, lica, and krizia were talking bout sum stuff.. haha were so nasty.. :P then wen i came out of the locker room after i changed.. freaking rachel and those guys were yeling.. they were like "what joel? wat did u say bout rhona?" and joel was like "i sed shes beautiful.. and im waiting for her" or sumthing close to that.. idk.. but i was jus freaking out.. then we practiced our half time for tomorrow.. then we went to the mall to buy hair ties for the game.. hehe and yea thats it..
oh yea were challenging jfk tomorrow.. Girls Basketball Championship SSHS vs. JFK @ UOG @ 7:00 tomorrow May 19, 2004.. Sharks wear BLACK!! See you there!!
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[17 May 2004|08:44pm] |
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well i jus got home from a game like 30 mins ago.. we won against guam high.. that means we go to championship.. i only stayed until half time of the other game and jfk was in the lead.. hmm we'l jus have to wait..
well at skool.. nuthing really happend.. at lunch we went to the gym to watch this basketball tournament.. richard's team was playing.. and of course they won.. so their next game is on wednesday.. and mr. estoy wanted the cheerleaders to perform during the half time.. but idk if we are..
classes were ok.. but it was boring as usual.. uhh wat else?? lets see.. i think joel is mad at me.. cuz he didnt talk to me today.. and he usually does.. he also says bye to me b4 he leaves class but he didnt.. i think i hurt him.. i kinda feel bad.. so joel.. im really sorry.. but i made a promise and i dont wanna break it..
also jason was pissing me off yesterday.. freaking on the way to church he was making me mad.. at church he was making me mad.. on the phone he was making me mad.. dammit he jus kept making me mad.. especially cuz wat happend btween him and my fren.. that made me realyl mad.. even today in class dammit i was so iritated.. argh!!
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