Current mood:

depressed

*sigh*
last nite i had a dream.. that u came up with every reason to end wat we have jus because u wanted to go out with sumone else.. then wen i woke up i started to cry.. cuz i was thinking of y u would do that.. i was thinking that it mite happen.. and it jus made me cry even more.. theres a possibility that it mite happen.. especially because of how things are going rite now.. and i kno that theres someone that wants to be with u and i kno that u have some feelings for her too.. cuz u had a chance to be with her.. u jus didnt take it cuz of ur frens.. but now that she doesnt care bout wat they say.. u have another chance.. its ur choice whether u wanna take it.. so heres the thing.. if u get another girlfren.. then were done.. cuz i dont wanna wait here then look stoopid if u get another girlfren.. i feel like im sumthing u can jus run to wen u want sumthing.. and it seems like u always find sumthing to get mad about jus so that u can go talk to some girl.. and if thats not the case u go talk to some girl neway.. and i dont understand how u could be so lovey dovey with me for a minute and then ur flirting with sum other girl the next minute.. dont u think thats messed up.. i mean i dont even do that.. so if ur jus gonna use me please stop.. and if ur jus gonna keep going off to other girls wen u find the chance to.. then dont come back to me.. cuz i hate feeling like im being used.. cuz it feels like crap.. i understand that u get mad.. but getting mad then flirting with sum girl after that?? it seems like u jus got mad so u can do that.. i really dont kno wat to think rite now.. so if u dont mind.. u wanna try explaining everything to me.. hope u had fun talking to whoever that was last nite.. dammit.. im gona go..

10:23.. well today is the parade.. im going to skinner's plaza at around 11 for lunch then im gonna go to church at 1:30.. then im gonna get ready at 3:30.. then were gonna head back to skinner's plaza for the parade.. man.. i needa talk to u (you kno who u are)

8:57 pm
well i went to skinner's plaza around 12 or sumthing like that and i ended up staying the whole time.. i watched my frens from skip, stargazers, and dancejazz perform.. and there were some people who sang.. man these filipinos now-a-days like over exagerate wen they sing.. hehe but its ok.. man it was so hot there.. then around 3:30 i got ready.. then my escort came at around 4.. then the parade started at 5.. man that walk was kinda long.. and my feet was hurting man.. we had to walk to the dam road.. oh yea i saw my fren brian but idk if he saw me.. and i saw a couple of other people.. then yea after we walked the parade started at skinners plaza and ended at skinner's plaza.. then we took a couple of pictures with the star guest.. they're filipino actresses.. i forgot there name tho.. then yea.. we left around 6 sumthing..

well wen i got home i changed.. then i went online.. and yea.. then kevin called.. and uhh we talked.. and umm.. i gess we had to take care of sum things.. and yea i gess its been taken care of.. but i really dont wanna talk bout it.. well i gess this is it for now..